I was told that im doing this because i want to feel something other than a broken heart. I want to make sure im still alive. and i can still breathe and walk and move. If it wasnt for my friends i could be done for right now. Im doing this over a guy. But why? i know hes not worth it. and i know everyone is scared for me. I hate the feeling of losing all control over my body and i have no thoughts. It happens. Then the next day i feel ashamed. and stupid for doing this to myself. Thanks to all my friends that have been helping me through this time<3
