Dont Blink (:

Hanging with my best friend tonight!!! (:

There she was. Sitting on a bench. Staring into the dark sky. No thoughts were running through her head. She looked around, then looked down. Took the gun out of her pocket and held it up. BANG! The gun fell to the ground.

    “what do you think happened boss?” “ I think it was a suicide. The gun was found on the ground and the bullet went right through her head.’” “but why would anyone want to…”  the officer didnt finish when she recognized something about this girl. She had seen her on t.v. a few days ago reported missing. “well I guess we can call her family and tell them we found their missing daughter”. “what do you mean Officer Rudy?” This girl was reported missing a few days ago”

    “boss, I think you might want to come have a look at this!”. “ What is it?” “this wasn’t no suicide. She was murdered.” “but how? All the evidence is right here” “ yes sir but the gun was never shot. It was loaded but not shot.” “unbelievable”.

    Knock knock knock. Mrs. Carfer answered the door. “yes? How can I help you officer?” “im here to talk to you about your daughter Lucy”. “ oh my gosh. Did you find her? Is she okay? Where is she?” “Mrs. Carfer may I come in?” “Yes of course” Mrs. Carfer said with a low face. “I was out investigating this morning on a crime that was committed about 3 am. I’m very sorry to say this, but your daughter has been murdered”. Mrs. Carfer put her head in her hands and cried. “Who would do such a thing?”. “That’s what im here to talk to you about. I need some information about your daughter. Any diaries or close friends of hers I could speak to”. “ Ill tell you everything if it helps you to find who did this to my little girl”. “great! Lets get started then”.

     “ She had a boyfriend last week. They were together for 3 years. But then one day she found him in bed with another girl. It broke her heart. But if I anyone knows anything. It may be him”. “whats his name?”. “ his name is Kyle. Kyle Truscan”. “anyone else that may know something?”. “well there is her friend Leah. They’ve been friends for as long as I can remember. They tell each other everything. She was actually over here a day before Lucy went missing.” “great! Now hows bout you go through some of her things so I can gather up some information from the source its self”. “yes of course Officer?” “McLanden” . “Officer McLanden”.

I was told that im doing this because i want to feel something other than a broken heart. I want to make sure im still alive. and i can still breathe and walk and move. If it wasnt for my friends i could be done for right now. Im doing this over a guy. But why? i know hes not worth it. and i know everyone is scared for me. I hate the feeling of losing all control over my body and i have no thoughts. It happens. Then the next day i feel ashamed. and stupid for doing this to myself. Thanks to all my friends that have been helping me through this time<3

So every saturday at 1230 i take piano lessons next to my job. And i have like the best piano teacher! hes teaching me everything that i wanna know. How to add my own touch to songs. And undertand music alone. If i wanna learn a song. Saturday is the day i will learn that song. Dan the man with master plan. Best piano teacher ever